so..

Life, as I know it, is over.

I've been getting this eerie feeling the last 2 days. Almost like I know something's going to happen. My intuition, or premonition is elevated these days.


...and on to yet another day.

so, i'm confused. i don't want to get hurt but i want to be able to fall again.

conflicted. i think i'm just gonna let things go and see where it goes... not gonna force it. not this time, i learned from my mistakes.

yeah, so..

it's raining. and i'm sitting here with my roommate watching tv. Ilker from Switzerland's due to fly in tonight but i have no idea if im going to see him.

ive lost motivation in school, im falling a bit behind (but caught up this afternoon while i was stuck inside, out of the rain).... heather sent in a package today which was really nice and it definitely made my day.

i have lots to say but i dont know how to put it into words.

later.

i've never felt so conflicted before.

things start happening all at once now. circumstances that i have no control over. things i didn't expect to happen, happened.

my question is.....when? when is it going to happen?

life in the district of columbia.

so i'm here again, at gallaudet. it's my third year out here.

i drove my car here all the way from california. i don't know if it was a mistake because now i dont really use it much. probably not going to bring it next year.

and i will be finding out if this semester's going to be a different one within a couple of days. three major classes, new friends, new roommates, new faces.

more later.